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oh yeah...one more thing...

anyone interested in buying a ticket to see simon and garfunkel this saturday in grand rapids? my dad has an extra ticket. let me know by tonight.

riding in a car with kate is an adventure it itself.

this weekend was....
it was.
but through it all i came back with a smile.
and a hug from him. and much more than was expected.

but with him...it's kind of predictable.

thai food tonight.
and hopefully a showing of the new apartment with the 2 new roommates.

this weekend was more than needed. thank you.

Post a memory you have of me in the comments. It can be anything you want, then post this to your journal and see what people remember of you.

everything just clouds over.

maybe that's how it's really supposed to be.

i could say something out loud but there's a reason for silence.

*i think i found what i am looking for*

i had a really good night.
all of you contributed to it.
i'm drunk but not THAT drunk.
i got the best 2 voice mails on my phones. i saved them.
i love you. you have no idea how much i care and worship all of you.
i'm so excited for next weekend. i'm even more excited for athens. adam is the best.
sarah is the best. chad riley is the best.
i'm so loved.

tonight:

419 n. hamilton invites you over for kamikazee and pina colada galore!
we'll drink, hug, kiss, and dance our worries away!
we want as many beautiful people over as possible...so that means you.
love,
linnea & the lovely girls of 419 n. hamilton

call my cell for directions or if you just want to tell me how much you love me =)
616-780-4850

why did everything that happened have to happen?

it could of all just started all over again?

i dunno...whatever...

i guess when it really all comes down to it, i deserve to feel shitty and worthless.

took a much needed nap today.

no more drinking for this week (weekdays that is, except friday!). this girl needs a rest.

i'm thinking about maybe giving up on you.

i'm loving everything.

the girls and i went grocery shopping and now i have yummy food to eat. i also have a checking account...i feel so grown up, its awesome.

evan called me today so i called him back and headed over there. i love his apartment it's so spacious and he has the coolest kitchen, i'm jealous. a few of his friends came over and we all chilled, it was a good time.
this boy is absolutely lovely. i just met him and already he's my new best friend. they're having a kegger tomorrow, so i'll definitely be over there.

tonight we're having people over so if you're in the area, stop by and drink with us. we'll dance and sing to modest mouse. what else could be better for a friday night?

Q and not U are coming to toledo, where sarah lives. i get to see them too adam! plus, i really hope to go see against me! jay's coming up that weekend i think. we'll party and pretend we're rockstars.

i swear, i'm never going back to grand rapids. this is so much better. too bad it took me a year to realize it.

=)

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yeah...i don't know.
how am i from someone else's point of view? tell me, i want to know.

i haven't eaten anything today yet.
i should do that.

call me strange...call me weird...i don't care.
i see it as unique...

so there's a tornado headed this way...i just heard from my step-mom who heard from my dad (the fire department always calls him and lets him know of tornado and severe thunderstorm warnings).
i have always dreamed of having a tornado occur, especially while i'm in class.

so i'm hoping something happens...if anything exciting takes place, i'll make sure to make note of it in here.

=)

Pick ANY 20 lj users on your friends list. Without revealing their names, say something about (or to) each one of them. Never reveal who is what.
ok, i'm going to break a rule and list the 20 random lj friends i chose, but i won't say which statement is for whom.

*you've been one of my longest lj friends and by far one of the classiest. when i read your entries, i always envision lovely thoughts of thought-provoking film, smooth jazz, and expensive wine.

*i've never met you in person, but i feel as if you actually care about me. i love it when you comment because you give the best advice. if ever met you, i'd give you the longest hug and thank you for all you've done.

*we only hung out once but i highly admire the person you are. not only are you attractive, but you're intelligent, unique, and i hope that whoever i marry, is like you.

*i added you as a friend only to find out you're not very interesting. i know it's mean to say, but i don't have the heart to delete you because when we talk online, you always seem so delighted by me.

*you know you're music and it's because of your journal that i've discovered some awesome bands. you're such a cute girl and i know i'd want to befriend you if you were closer in location.

*you're an amazing person. i saw you often throughout the year and you made everything better. i wish i would of talked to you more and gotten to know you more on a personal level. it's sad to know i might never see you again. i hope to be like you in a few years.

*i never really comment in your journal, but i read your entries religiously. your photographs, drawings, and quotes are lovely and i write them down every so often because they inspire me.

*you're beautiful and if i ever met you, i'd want to make out with you for hours.

*i never thought i could meet a girl as awesome as you. i love ya to death and can't wait until we can start our many adventures all over again.

*i want to hear your band! i wish we lived nearby because you seem like a really cool person to chill with. plus, your taste in music gives me an orgasm.

*modest mouse is our true connection. i want to run around in an open field with you and talk about everything until the sun comes up.

*you make my life better. i love you more than anything in the world. you're by far one of the most incredible people i have ever met. no one makes me feel the way you do.

*you're really confusing yet very simple. i hope our friendship rekindles soon because you inspire me and i need a lot of that, especially from you.

*you make me feel like a kid whenever i'm around you. i never worry about anything, i just smile and take in the moment. i love our conversations and silly moments.

*your journal makes me realize that being girly can be okay. i always enjoy your entries, they make my day go a lot better. plus, you're very nice to look at.

*i wish we could of gotten to know each other better but at least i've got to experience a few crazy drunk nights with you. you're a beautiful girl, a blast to be with and i'll miss you terribly when you leave =(

*you're one of the cutest girls alive. i want to go thrift store shopping with you and have sing-alongs. your entries are fun and i wish i could meet you.

*i don't know much about you, but i like reading your entries. from what i've read, you're a really intriguing person and i hope to get to know you better.

*we would get along great, i know it. we love a lot of the same things and you like all my favorite bands. why can't you live closer???

*i have so much respect for you considering we only hung out for a few hours a long time ago. i love your journal and i love the person you are. i hope you're happy because you deserve to be.

20 random lj users i picked (not in the correct order obviously): socks and all, t2uth, sexxie, randomm3, innocentlilally, coolredelusive, a314, m80050, keyser, justanothagirl, laugh at danger, vsarto, sonicdethmonkey, violetskye, burningpaperbag, zacksucks, raencloud, adamxcoulier, esotericgirl, cmonkeyfish.

and now i cry...for both of us.

im tripping on mushrooms right now...and its unlike anything ive done.

i wish i could call you.
i would really like to talk to you and just be with you right now.
im sorry.
i love you.

livejournal is evil...
it's evil because it's addicting and prevents me from doing the work i should be doing while on the computer.
but alas...it's struck again.

why had i not seen that entry until now?

i must of missed it by a hair...because i would of mentioned it earlier.

maybe t-ro is right...i do have too many guys in my life that i'm confused about...well...confused is the wrong word. i really care about 3 specific guys...
obviously i can't have all of them, but that isn't my goal.

there's a problem with getting together with any of them...do you have any idea how upsetting that is?

i love john...very much...
and i hate the fact that i'm not only 5 years younger, but also inexperienced in serious relationships. if there weren't obstacles, i'd love to be with him. every time i see him, i still get that fuzzy feeling in my stomach and if i could, i'd hug him for hours on end. he's pretty much the only person i can tell everything too and it's always comforting knowing he's there for me, especially when i'm in doubt of everything in my life.
i love jay...
he's my best friend and so much more at the same time. we have this unspoken emotional understanding and we not only alleviate, but fulfill each other's lives with each other's friendship. he's my sleeping companion and my favorite person to be around.
i like jason...
i always love the insightful conversations we have with each other. he always keeps me guessing and is overall very fascinating. I love our interaction and sense of humor together.

i can't stand the fact that i'm jealous that there's another girl in john's life.
i can't stand the fact that jay and i will probably never become anything official because of his fear of fucking everything up.
i can't that being with jason wouldn't be as good as being with john or jay and that i'd fear what it'd do the friendship between jay and myself.

i hate unsettling feelings.
i hate knowing that john is getting over me.
i hate knowing i won't see jay for 2 weeks.
i hate knowing jason is so slow when it comes to writing back.

i hate being happy and then having a numb feeling cast all over after reading that entry.

i hate knowing that i'm over-exaggerating and paranoid.

i hate guys.

i hope this doesn't ruin my day.

i have a confession to make:

i'm happy =)

"how long was your longest relationship?"-t ro
"4 months"- me
"were you in love with him?"- t ro
"yes"- me
"are you still?"- t ro
*nods*
"i can tell...i can see it in your eyes"- t ro

the convo went a lot longer but the rest is private.

*sighs*