abre los ojos

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 18:24:03 GMT

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Wed, 16 Jun 2004 14:05:49 GMT

oh yeah...one more thing...

anyone interested in buying a ticket to see simon and garfunkel this saturday in grand rapids? my dad has an extra ticket. let me know by tonight.

Mon, 07 Jun 2004 20:50:57 GMT

riding in a car with kate is an adventure it itself.

this weekend was....
it was.
but through it all i came back with a smile.
and a hug from him. and much more than was expected.

but with him...it's kind of predictable.

thai food tonight.
and hopefully a showing of the new apartment with the 2 new roommates.

it'll soon pass...yes it will

Mon, 10 May 2004 21:01:37 GMT

this weekend was more than needed. thank you.

=)

Wed, 28 Apr 2004 22:46:22 GMT

Post a memory you have of me in the comments. It can be anything you want, then post this to your journal and see what people remember of you.

i spoke too soon.

Wed, 28 Jan 2004 16:10:01 GMT

everything just clouds over.

maybe that's how it's really supposed to be.

i could say something out loud but there's a reason for silence.

*i think i found what i am looking for*

Sun, 05 Oct 2003 06:10:46 GMT

i had a really good night.
all of you contributed to it.
i'm drunk but not THAT drunk.
i got the best 2 voice mails on my phones. i saved them.
i love you. you have no idea how much i care and worship all of you.
i'm so excited for next weekend. i'm even more excited for athens. adam is the best.
sarah is the best. chad riley is the best.
i'm so loved.

we'll be in bliss forever together

Sat, 27 Sep 2003 22:29:16 GMT

tonight:

419 n. hamilton invites you over for kamikazee and pina colada galore!
we'll drink, hug, kiss, and dance our worries away!
we want as many beautiful people over as possible...so that means you.
love,
linnea & the lovely girls of 419 n. hamilton

call my cell for directions or if you just want to tell me how much you love me =)
616-780-4850

wow...am i that bad?

Wed, 24 Sep 2003 23:34:56 GMT

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If it's not one thing, it's another. Your life is a pitiful wreck, and it's all you ever write about. Why don't you at least make up a happy story for once. Your friends would appreciate that.

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i'm just a lonely girl in my youth...

Sat, 20 Sep 2003 19:40:20 GMT

why did everything that happened have to happen?

it could of all just started all over again?

i dunno...whatever...

i guess when it really all comes down to it, i deserve to feel shitty and worthless.

Mon, 08 Sep 2003 21:00:35 GMT

took a much needed nap today.

no more drinking for this week (weekdays that is, except friday!). this girl needs a rest.

i'm thinking about maybe giving up on you.

everything is beautiful and nothing no longer hurts

Fri, 05 Sep 2003 22:15:34 GMT

i'm loving everything.

the girls and i went grocery shopping and now i have yummy food to eat. i also have a checking account...i feel so grown up, its awesome.

evan called me today so i called him back and headed over there. i love his apartment it's so spacious and he has the coolest kitchen, i'm jealous. a few of his friends came over and we all chilled, it was a good time.
this boy is absolutely lovely. i just met him and already he's my new best friend. they're having a kegger tomorrow, so i'll definitely be over there.

tonight we're having people over so if you're in the area, stop by and drink with us. we'll dance and sing to modest mouse. what else could be better for a friday night?

Q and not U are coming to toledo, where sarah lives. i get to see them too adam! plus, i really hope to go see against me! jay's coming up that weekend i think. we'll party and pretend we're rockstars.

i swear, i'm never going back to grand rapids. this is so much better. too bad it took me a year to realize it.

=)

am i still there with you? sometimes i forget.

Mon, 25 Aug 2003 18:30:11 GMT

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yeah...i don't know.
how am i from someone else's point of view? tell me, i want to know.

i haven't eaten anything today yet.
i should do that.

Mon, 11 Aug 2003 18:57:18 GMT

call me strange...call me weird...i don't care.
i see it as unique...

so there's a tornado headed this way...i just heard from my step-mom who heard from my dad (the fire department always calls him and lets him know of tornado and severe thunderstorm warnings).
i have always dreamed of having a tornado occur, especially while i'm in class.

so i'm hoping something happens...if anything exciting takes place, i'll make sure to make note of it in here.

=)

something different...

Fri, 13 Jun 2003 04:41:19 GMT

Pick ANY 20 lj users on your friends list. Without revealing their names, say something about (or to) each one of them. Never reveal who is what.
ok, i'm going to break a rule and list the 20 random lj friends i chose, but i won't say which statement is for whom.

*you've been one of my longest lj friends and by far one of the classiest. when i read your entries, i always envision lovely thoughts of thought-provoking film, smooth jazz, and expensive wine.

*i've never met you in person, but i feel as if you actually care about me. i love it when you comment because you give the best advice. if ever met you, i'd give you the longest hug and thank you for all you've done.

*we only hung out once but i highly admire the person you are. not only are you attractive, but you're intelligent, unique, and i hope that whoever i marry, is like you.

*i added you as a friend only to find out you're not very interesting. i know it's mean to say, but i don't have the heart to delete you because when we talk online, you always seem so delighted by me.

*you know you're music and it's because of your journal that i've discovered some awesome bands. you're such a cute girl and i know i'd want to befriend you if you were closer in location.

*you're an amazing person. i saw you often throughout the year and you made everything better. i wish i would of talked to you more and gotten to know you more on a personal level. it's sad to know i might never see you again. i hope to be like you in a few years.

*i never really comment in your journal, but i read your entries religiously. your photographs, drawings, and quotes are lovely and i write them down every so often because they inspire me.

*you're beautiful and if i ever met you, i'd want to make out with you for hours.

*i never thought i could meet a girl as awesome as you. i love ya to death and can't wait until we can start our many adventures all over again.

*i want to hear your band! i wish we lived nearby because you seem like a really cool person to chill with. plus, your taste in music gives me an orgasm.

*modest mouse is our true connection. i want to run around in an open field with you and talk about everything until the sun comes up.

*you make my life better. i love you more than anything in the world. you're by far one of the most incredible people i have ever met. no one makes me feel the way you do.

*you're really confusing yet very simple. i hope our friendship rekindles soon because you inspire me and i need a lot of that, especially from you.

*you make me feel like a kid whenever i'm around you. i never worry about anything, i just smile and take in the moment. i love our conversations and silly moments.

*your journal makes me realize that being girly can be okay. i always enjoy your entries, they make my day go a lot better. plus, you're very nice to look at.

*i wish we could of gotten to know each other better but at least i've got to experience a few crazy drunk nights with you. you're a beautiful girl, a blast to be with and i'll miss you terribly when you leave =(

*you're one of the cutest girls alive. i want to go thrift store shopping with you and have sing-alongs. your entries are fun and i wish i could meet you.

*i don't know much about you, but i like reading your entries. from what i've read, you're a really intriguing person and i hope to get to know you better.

*we would get along great, i know it. we love a lot of the same things and you like all my favorite bands. why can't you live closer???

*i have so much respect for you considering we only hung out for a few hours a long time ago. i love your journal and i love the person you are. i hope you're happy because you deserve to be.

20 random lj users i picked (not in the correct order obviously): socks and all, t2uth, sexxie, randomm3, innocentlilally, coolredelusive, a314, m80050, keyser, justanothagirl, laugh at danger, vsarto, sonicdethmonkey, violetskye, burningpaperbag, zacksucks, raencloud, adamxcoulier, esotericgirl, cmonkeyfish.

i love you

Sat, 12 Apr 2003 23:01:29 GMT

and now i cry...for both of us.

Sun, 06 Apr 2003 10:25:16 GMT

im tripping on mushrooms right now...and its unlike anything ive done.

i wish i could call you.
i would really like to talk to you and just be with you right now.
im sorry.
i love you.

i can't win.

Tue, 01 Apr 2003 20:03:13 GMT

livejournal is evil...
it's evil because it's addicting and prevents me from doing the work i should be doing while on the computer.
but alas...it's struck again.

why had i not seen that entry until now?

i must of missed it by a hair...because i would of mentioned it earlier.

maybe t-ro is right...i do have too many guys in my life that i'm confused about...well...confused is the wrong word. i really care about 3 specific guys...
obviously i can't have all of them, but that isn't my goal.

there's a problem with getting together with any of them...do you have any idea how upsetting that is?

i love john...very much...
and i hate the fact that i'm not only 5 years younger, but also inexperienced in serious relationships. if there weren't obstacles, i'd love to be with him. every time i see him, i still get that fuzzy feeling in my stomach and if i could, i'd hug him for hours on end. he's pretty much the only person i can tell everything too and it's always comforting knowing he's there for me, especially when i'm in doubt of everything in my life.
i love jay...
he's my best friend and so much more at the same time. we have this unspoken emotional understanding and we not only alleviate, but fulfill each other's lives with each other's friendship. he's my sleeping companion and my favorite person to be around.
i like jason...
i always love the insightful conversations we have with each other. he always keeps me guessing and is overall very fascinating. I love our interaction and sense of humor together.

i can't stand the fact that i'm jealous that there's another girl in john's life.
i can't stand the fact that jay and i will probably never become anything official because of his fear of fucking everything up.
i can't that being with jason wouldn't be as good as being with john or jay and that i'd fear what it'd do the friendship between jay and myself.

i hate unsettling feelings.
i hate knowing that john is getting over me.
i hate knowing i won't see jay for 2 weeks.
i hate knowing jason is so slow when it comes to writing back.

i hate being happy and then having a numb feeling cast all over after reading that entry.

i hate knowing that i'm over-exaggerating and paranoid.

i hate guys.

i hope this doesn't ruin my day.

are we wasting each others time or are we really in love?

Tue, 03 Dec 2002 02:46:06 GMT

i have a confession to make:

i'm happy =)

Sat, 16 Nov 2002 02:30:02 GMT

"how long was your longest relationship?"-t ro
"4 months"- me
"were you in love with him?"- t ro
"yes"- me
"are you still?"- t ro
*nods*
"i can tell...i can see it in your eyes"- t ro

the convo went a lot longer but the rest is private.

*sighs*

i'll never find someone quite like you again...

Sun, 22 Sep 2002 06:15:33 GMT

here are 100 random thing concerning myself in no particular order: (yes, i stole this idea)
1.i've been in love once
2.i've resided in grand rapids, michigan all 18 years of my life
3.i consider myself to be somewhat of an idealist
4.i suffer from the depths of melancholy every winter, usually from mid january-late february
5.i'm a psychology major
6.i love the taste of beer, my favorite kind being rolling rock
7.i find the personality of most females to be distasteful
8.the majority of my friends are of the male species
9.my favorite city in the world is san francisco
10.my favorite band at the moment is modest mouse
11.the most beautiful film in my opinion is "waking life"
12.my best friend is jay vanveen...i absolutely love that boy
13.i'm not emotionally close to any of my immediate family members
14.my ethnicity consists of mexican/spanish descent
15.i've grown up with those who are caucasion all my life and as a result, identify with them most as opposed to my own race
16.i'm a college freshman @ eastern michigan univ.
17.i'm left handed and love it
18.my mother passed away from breast cancer when i was 11 years old
19.i had a nanny for 4 years following my mother's demise
20.i love non-mainstream music
21.i have dreads and fall in love with any boy who has dreads himself
22.i hate winter yet love winter attire
23.hoodies are a favorite of mine
24.billie holiday is my goddess
25.my most recent therapist was my inspiration to become a therapist
26.i've worn make-up since 7th grade and unfortunately can't go out in public without it on
27.i graduated from a private christian high school
28.i do not affiliate myself with any specific religion but am not athiest
29.i attended woodstock '99
30.i've met the bands system of a down, incubus, and mindless self indulgence
31.i've remained friends with every single one of my ex-boyfriends
32.i've been 'dumped' once
33.i plan on having only one child and it has to be a boy
34.out of all my friends online, i've met 6 of them in person and have had all good experiences, and even hooked up with 2 of them
35.i love literally sleeping with a guy
36.i'm trying to quit smoking
37.i have 6 aunts, 7 uncles (blood-related), and 40 cousins on my mom's side of the family
38.weird random things fascinate me
39.i'm an aquarius
40.my friend todd made a deal with me to take me to canada on my 19th b-day
41.i'm spoiled and as a result, can be very stubborn at times
42.i'm a horny drunk
43.i have the worst case of insomnia in the summer
44.i want to be on the real world someday (sadly)
45.i strangely have more than 1 guy liking me on a monthly basis
46.i find hugs to be the best form of comfort
47.i adore thrift stores but always have a hard time finding cool stuff
48.i get most of my clothes from online shopping
49.i am a strong supporter of gay rights, pro-choice, and anti-death penalty
50.i used to want to become an actress
51.one of my favorite authors is kurt vonnegut
52.i want to name my future son either yossarian or hayden
53.i used to attend raves on a monthly basis
54.i thoroughly enjoy deep conversation
55.i've been told by many guys that i'm confusing
56.introverted guys intrigue me
57.i miss my friends back home sooooo much, especially jay
58.i have yet to experience a fun-filled new years eve
59.i surprisingly miss high school...well, parts of it
60.mineral water is one of my favorite beverages
61.i drink 10x more coffee in the summer than in the winter
62.i'm scared of getting older
63.i used to be fixated on korn and jonathan davis from the ages of 14-16
64.i loathe math and also do poorly in that area
65.my favorite disney movie is "sleeping beauty"
66.i've kept a journal since i was 16
67.my first job started this past summer where i was a secretary at an apartment complex office...i still currently work there
68.one of my fav. places to shop is urban outfitters
69.i miss sex
70.i actually haven't met very many people here @ college
71.i love to people watch
72.i've been on airplanes since i was an infant
73.i hope to someday live in san francisco
74.fall and summer are my favorite seasons
75.i'm an adrenaline junkie...i live for rollercoasters
76.i love writing letters to people
77.sometimes i daydream a little bit too much
78.i volunteered in nyc 3 weeks after sept. 11th with 49 other students at my school
79.my favorite romance film is "love story". it reminds me of the relationship i had with my ex-boyfriend
80.my favorite actor is adrien brody and my fav. actress is penelope cruz. i think both of them are absolutely gorgeous.
81.6 guys have fallen in love with me
82.i miss my ex-boyfriend...i believe in a way that he's my soulmate
83.i love classic rock...hendrix, joplin, guess who, led zepplin, etc.
84.i love to drive
85.i'm addicted to lip gloss...seriously
86.i have a fear of vomit
87.the worst year of my life was when i was in 7th grade
88.if i had a choice, i'd room with a guy in college
89.i hate perverted humor...such as from movies like: scary movie, etc.
90.i'm very insecure about my physical appearance...have always been that way since 8th grade
91.subways are my style of transportation
92.i love the beach but hate swimming...i haven't swam since 7th grade
93.i'm a professional porcrastinator
94.i find rain to be soothing...i love to lay in bed, listen to jazz, and fall asleep
95.the weirdest thing i've tasted (and liked) was garlic ice cream @ the stinking rose garden in SF
96.i enjoy creme brulee (sp?) and don't really like chocolate
97.i'll never quite understand the obsession between guys and their video games
98.i think the most important thing to get out of life, is to have a good philosophy of meaning on what your life is about "life understood is life lived"-waking life
99.i want to be loved again
100.music and love are my two most favorite things in the world

i love...

Wed, 11 Sep 2002 05:23:03 GMT

i love how
*you can leave your dorm room open and random people come by to visit
*i see art majors walking around with large portfolio bags, and i grow envious
*i've received so many compliments on my dreads
*guys live on my floor
*i can walk around and not have anyone tell me when to be in
*i always have someone to chill with
*i have cool cities surrounding me so i won't have to deal with small town blues
*my roommate and i are so different yet get along so well
*i'm away from home but not to the point where i feel so far away from my friends
*i am finally independent

real love

Sat, 07 Sep 2002 05:49:28 GMT

everything is beautiful and nothing no longer hurts...

keep love from being tainted.

is it true?

Wed, 05 Jun 2002 00:03:06 GMT

I act like I'm 22.
This test was brought to you by James - Part of the David and James phenomenon. Take it here.

well, a lot must be said in terms of updating, but i'll wait until i get back from going out.

i am born again

Sun, 21 Apr 2002 05:48:07 GMT

i feel infinite...its unreal...i'm so happy.

good things are coming my way...